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Well, that wasn’t so bad.

224.8 lbs.

I expected worse. Way worse!

Why can’t my weight be like my cell phone, keys, or my son’s soccer cleats the morning of a game? Easy to lose, hard to find/gain!

Inspired by AB I started looking back and trying to find when I was this weight. I had to really go back, a long way back, and yet gaining it didn’t even take half the time. A Quarter of the time! What’s up with that?! It drives me a little crazy to see these little reports about how much a celebrity struggled to put on weight for a role. Brownies and cheeseburgers every day, you poor thing. I’m pretty sure if they are complaining about gaining weight, they aren’t doing it right! It is awesome to eat whatever you want. “Would you like mayo and extra cheese with that? Ummm, of course!” “Throw some chili fries in with that!” Have you ever had a slopper? What? No?! It must be a southern Colorado thing. Take an open faced hamburger, throw a heap of fries on top, smother in green chile, and blanket with cheese. “What do you mean that isn’t on the diet? It’s got protein, dairy, a little bit of carbs. Ok a lot o-carbs! Make the chile really hot and your body will sweat the calories out, right?”

Eating healthy is boring and so much work. Why does it have to be so much work? Shouldn’t the math skills we learned in high school and wondered when we would ever use Algebra, be used to fight cancer or something? Not for figuring out if I have 207 calories left to eat today and 1 cookie is x amount of calories, do I get to dunk them in milk while speeding to point B at 56 mph while driving toward me is the Ice Cream truck  travelling at a similar rate of speed but leaving 15 minutes later, what color is the number 7?

Can you tell I am having a rough food day? Maybe if celery tasted like vanilla I wouldn’t be frustrated.

I did get moving this past week……………………………once!

Yep, 1 stinking day for a workout. Pathetic I know! Big Sigh! Deep breath! Refocus! All hope is not lost! Once is better than none! This week we just shoot for doubling that. Small steps to get to bigger steps. I am too prone to frustration right now for not getting a workout in every day or eating well daily. Small goals, small accomplishments to build on and get the motivation going again.

I Hope!

Until next week weight warriors…..

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Convicted? Maybe. Denial? Perhaps. Avoiding? Absolutely!

I have started a post soooooo many times in my head on so many a Sunday and yet, nothing! I have written nothing for a while. Been accountable for nothing for far too long! I know it too. This isn’t a surprise. “Oh my! I had no idea it had been so long since I posted. Wow! How time really flies!”

WHATEVER!!

Out of sight, out of mind is more like it. Don’t have to want to  deal with it. Honestly, the fact that no one else is posting has made it easier to ignore. I guess if everyone else jumped off a bridge I would too, eventually. Not blaming any one else for my own choices, it’s just amazing how I can use others as a reason to justify it. Not right at all! Then out of the blue…a post. A post to remind me why we all are doing this. A post from a poor sleep deprived, new momma willing to talk about her weight. And after having a baby! All us mom’s know that’s when you feel the worst about your body!

We started all this to encourage, help, commiserate, cheer, cry, gripe, and push each other until we get to where we want to be with our health. It’s time I started climbing out instead of wallowing in the muddy valley of despair and pity!

I saw this recently from another blog and for a couple days it got me moving and then I stopped looking at it so I wouldn’t feel guilty. How did I allow myself to fall so far again! UGH! I’m in this circular pattern of disgusted with myself  must do something about it, good for a day, oh why bother, disgusted again. Must stop the cycle. Hopefully, this is the first step. Having to answer for what I did or didn’t do this week will maybe get that motivation going again.

Here we go……………again.

I don’t know where my weight is exactly except that it has inched up a few pounds. I think I will just start with trying to get moving again, regularly, rather than focus on the scale just yet. So that’s my plan.

Get Moving!!

Until next Sunday……………………………….

Status Quo Sucks!

I am in a holding pattern. Same weight, different day!

Slightly annoyed. Go up or Go down, preferably down, but do something Mr. Scale.

I work out, hard! Spend a day+ sore and then repeat. Watch what I eat. Drown in water, pee a river. What happens?

Nothing!

Be a slug, Eat like a glutton. What happens?

Nothing!

I work out. Sweaty, sweaty, sweaty! Eat like a pig. What Happens?

NOTHING!

I work out! Boy do my calves and butt hurt! Watch what I eat. Have a small treat for the week. What happens?

NOTHING!

Seriously?

If my weight was going up, I’d know I was doing things wrong. Change it and get back on track. If I was going down in pounds, the momentum would help keep me going. I don’t have motivation. How can you have motivation  to keep on keeping on when nothing you’re doing is working. All I feel is frustrated. I even tossed the idea of cancelling our Y membership around to my hubby. NOT GOOD!

The voices are creeping in. Why bother? I have other things to take care of. I don’t have time to take and hour or 2 out of my day to get all sweaty and gross. I’m not accomplishing anything anyways. My weight isn’t so bad. I am less than I was, isn’t that good enough?

Isn’t that good enough?

Well, No!

Who likes the status quo?

Somehow, someway, I must push through!

Wish me luck and better yet, pray for me!

Not What I Weigh!

I don’t know about you, but I pretty much have a love/hate relationship with my bathroom scale. I stand on it and those numbers just don’t give me the affirmation and admiration that I’m looking for.

So, here’s what I need to remember… if I step on that scale and see it as an indication of my worth, I’m always going to feel drained. But if I step on a scale and I look at it with the tool in mind that it was supposed to be, I can be refreshed. I can say this scale measures the weight of my physical body, yes, but it can never measure my worth as a woman.

Lisa Terkeurst

 

I was needing this today, this week, this month, THIS YEAR! 

I have a feeling I am not the only one.

Remember where your worth comes from ladies!

Just the facts maam

Weight- 221.2

Workouts- 3

Nutrition- Eh

23 weeks until Big Dog Brag Mud Run

10 weeks until Half Marathon Run to the Shrine

9 weeks until Glow Run 5k

I better get my butt in gear!

“Tears will get you sympathy. Sweat will get you results!”

 

 

What was I thinking?

I am having a crappy day, week, month. Oy!

I am feeling like I have bitten off more than I can chew with school. My schedule hasn’t fallen into place so it feels like I am just rushing from one thing to another and nothing is getting the attention it needs.

One workout this week, but I was sore!

I had to endure my first all nighter. Not even in high school did I go a night without sleeping because I was cramming for a test. It’s been 2 days since and I still don’t feel like I have got caught up on sleep. Of course here I am, after 11pm and still awake. I am too old for this!

I am drifting in a sea of craziness! I need to get my feet planted on solid ground again. How I am going to do that is a mystery. One day at a time I guess. Tomorrow is a new day, a new opportunity to start over.

Must sleep!

Sweet dreams!

This is the Title…

I have no idea what to name this post.

Well, I missed last week. So much for perfect blog attendance. LOL!  Flu and my first full week of 13 credits took me out. Wait, I hadn’t told you or anyone for that matter. I am back in school after a little more than a decade. Feeling a little crazy and haven’t got my schedule worked out quite right yet. Trying to fit in workouts are proving to be a bit difficult. Not to mention the stress has me reaching for more carbs than I care to admit.

My weight has held steady though. That’s one small blessing.

Drawing a bit of a blank here. I did do better this past week than the last. 3 workouts rather than 1. I must just keeping improving. More workouts and better eating. Plus SLEEP!. Must sleep!

I am hoping to hit a stride soon and not feel so chaotic.

Hopefully you all are doing better with your goals and the flu has steered clear of your house.

Another week, another new start.

What can I say?

Number of workouts this week: 0

Did I cheat with food? Yes  Sir-ee Bob!

Number of days I cheated: 5, maybe 6, oh alright everyday!

So much for motivational sayings!

In my defense it has been a ridiculously busy, stressful week. Not good enough you say? Yeah I know! Maybe it’s  subconscious. Our church has challenged us all to a 21-day fast beginning tomorrow. You can do whatever type of fast you feel led to do, and I have chosen a sunrise-sunset fast with a partial fast of bread. The all day fast because I am feeling very far from God right now and the partial because bread is my downfall! I need to break that obsession and find comfort in Him rather than a buttered roll. Could it be that knowing this sacrifice was coming, I indulged myself  leading up to it. Probably. That’s the kind of logic where food is concerned I have given before.

The chore is to not let this set back become my routine. Must move forward. Must persevere!

I am reminded of something I saw on FB though

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Well, I guess it’s a good thing tomorrow is Monday! LOL!

How many mulligans do we get anyways?

Here we go!!

Good Luck All!

Well….

I have no idea what to blog this week. None. Nada. Zilch. Zero. I think my brain is fried from preparing taxes, w-2’s, and 1099’s for work. Or maybe frozen from our negative temps. Either way I have nothing except maybe some complaining because I gained this week even with 4 workout days. And we’re not talking easy workouts either.

Since I am a little discouraged this week, I decided to try to get some motivation/perseverance going with some of my favorite quotes. Maybe if I choose one each day and make it my mantra, repeating it over and over during the day it will help me push on.

Here’s to a better week!

When you believe in a possible God, you can do the impossible!                                                                                                                                                   -Ray Lewis

 

‎”You’re never a loser until you quit trying.”
—Mike Ditka

Never give up! Failure and rejection are only the first steps in succeeding.
—Jim Valvano

Every man is the builder of a temple, called his body.
—Henry David Thoreau

If you never push yourself, you will never know how strong you are.

When I exercise I wear black. It’s like a funeral for my fat.

Test Yourself! It is in you, I promise, but you must let it out!

We all have dreams, in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline and effort.
-Jesse Owens

It’s very hard in the beginning to understand that the whole idea is not to beat the other runners. Eventually you learn that the competition is against the little voice inside you that wants you to quit.- George Sheehan

Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
-Walter Elliott

Clear your mind of can’t.—Samuel Johnson

The voice inside of your head that says you can’t is a liar!

I may not be the fastest and I may not be the strongest, but I will be damned is I am not trying my hardest.

Even if you are walking, you are still lapping everyone still on the couch.

 

 

Hellllooooo Taxes!

Almost forgot to post.

Have nothing great to report. The year is starting out sucky!

1 workout-48min run.

Taxes are consuming my life right now. Not my own. Preparing employees W-2’s and 1099’s for the contract workers and that is not to mention the giving statements for our church members. I know I have until the end of the month, but I would rather get them done and not have to worry about them later. Besides it never fails that a problem comes up and drags it out.

I plan to hit the gym tomorrow for no other reason than to relieve some stress!

Oy! This is the time of year I should have stock in Advil!

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